You obviously didn't love wholly, or you would have continued. She took you there to tell you honestly, for she knew or had experienced that same reaction before.

I was scared the first time I was taken upstairs in a Thai Bar by a Trans. She was more beautiful than any of the 'ladies' and she did tell me. I was pushing my own boundaries, extending my experiences at the time. I let her blow me and we showered together but I could not get it up to complete the anal sex, as she was still 'attached,' she had her own hang-ups, kept her dick hidden. Which, I later noticed that some do, seemingly ashamed to have one.

After that occasion , I got braver and went with a couple more successfully. Two of whom professed their 'love' for me. That was very difficult as I didn't want to hurt their feelings by knocking them back harshly.

But you're correct, it changes your life. I am mostly hetero, am into beauty, which can occur in visual or within the soul and these days would not worry if I went with whomsoever sexually, so long as their heart is right. My time in Asia taught me a lot, and sex is a bodily reaction, an itch to be scratched, to be enjoyed with another beautiful soul. Preferably used spiritually, in a meditative Tantric manner, sexual energy can be used positively no matter the gender.