Extreme naivety got you into that girl! Wow, it always amazes me how emotions, lust and what we perceive as love gets us into these situations. If you have a basic loving heart, you will fall, many times probably. People judge you as they will, but good hearts will prevail eventually. The falling still happens, the more you partake in these relationships though, the jealousy disappears, the fear is nothing, in the end you will become just how the universe wants you, “a good heart.” Bless you for sharing what must have been painful.